Ramblings & Writings

First impressions-- What a joke! That's all I know. So often wrong-- Good or bad. My advice: Don't try to Figure them out; People are people, I am who I am; If you want to know, Simply ask. --July 18, 2003 I'm sure I wrote this one after getting frustrated about a situation with someone who either I thought was one thing it wasn't or they thought I was something I wasn't.

Wanting, striving to be a better me... Always trying to be more like Him. Often not feeling I'm doing enough; Getting discouraged and then, Comparing myself to others. Because He's always watching, He helps me see my gifts-- Reminds me of His love. His love is everlasting, With none does he compare. Helps me see my true identity: A lovely daughter of God. --July 14, 2003 I think I wrote this reflecting upon previous feelings of inadequacy.

I still remember the fun I had Not having a care in the world-- Riding bike and climbing trees, Swimming on hot summer days, Reading in bed 'til I fell asleep. Many times I wish to be there, Filling my days with so much. Then there were the friends We swore we would always be; As we grew, they faded away, But there was one who stayed-- That one I can never forget. As much as I long to be carefree, I'd never give up the freedom: So many more options now, And ever so many decisions. But if I didn't have it all, When would I ever learn? So much to look forward to: Doing what I've always wanted-- Giving and helping so many, Fulfilling my wildest dreams, Beginning a miraculous love. Life is full of such great wonder-- We must remember the past, Never forget the future plans, But always live for today! --July 14, 2003 I was feeling pretty reminiscent the day I wrote this, remembering my childhood. The part about a friend never forgotten is about my best friend who I had growi...

--July 6, 2003 Sometimes I forget the love He has for me: I start to think, "No one really cares." Nothing seems to be going right; I just keep sinking low'r and low'r. And when I think I've lost it all, He's there to lift me up and love me even more. I was obviously having a bad day when I wrote this. :)

--July 3, 2003 You will never know me, Or the way I feel about you. I see you from afar and dream. I see you dance and hear you sind. Your words are po'try to my soul; If you would only sing for me, My life would be complete, But you will never know me. Life with you could be so sweet; First we should probably meet, But you will never know me.

(Written July 3, 2003) I can't stop thinkin' 'bout you: Your smile and your voice, Or the way your eyes shine Is all so clear in my mind. Every thing reminds me of you; Everyone asks about you. Mem'ries of you just seem To cloud all other thought. Your words still sind to me; I can still sense your eyes Looking deep into my soul. You're the only one who Knows the real me inside.

I finally found my poetry book. So, without further ado.... Endless Love Life can be so hard, But I cannot forget There's One who's always there. He understands my sorrow; He has felt it all. I could never repay All He's done for me. He has blessed me with so much: His endless love and mercy. His perfect love, with all my heart I never could return. Yet all He asks of me Is to "Come," and follow Him. When I ask in Heaven, "Why did you do so much?" His simple reply will be, "So you could be like Me!" This one I wrote on July 2, 2003 while I was attending BYU . Someone to Love I want someone to love: to give me heart and soul, to share my whole life with, to have for all eternity. Could you be that someone? Could you love me that much? Would you take my hand in yours to walk through life together? To love someone is my deepest desire-- Someone to raise a family with. I need to love someone that much; I need him to love me just as much. I want s...