Ramblings & Writings

First impressions-- What a joke! That's all I know. So often wrong-- Good or bad. My advice: Don't try to Figure them out; People are people, I am who I am; If you want to know, Simply ask. --July 18, 2003 I'm sure I wrote this one after getting frustrated about a situation with someone who either I thought was one thing it wasn't or they thought I was something I wasn't.

Wanting, striving to be a better me... Always trying to be more like Him. Often not feeling I'm doing enough; Getting discouraged and then, Comparing myself to others. Because He's always watching, He helps me see my gifts-- Reminds me of His love. His love is everlasting, With none does he compare. Helps me see my true identity: A lovely daughter of God. --July 14, 2003 I think I wrote this reflecting upon previous feelings of inadequacy.

I still remember the fun I had Not having a care in the world-- Riding bike and climbing trees, Swimming on hot summer days, Reading in bed 'til I fell asleep. Many times I wish to be there, Filling my days with so much. Then there were the friends We swore we would always be; As we grew, they faded away, But there was one who stayed-- That one I can never forget. As much as I long to be carefree, I'd never give up the freedom: So many more options now, And ever so many decisions. But if I didn't have it all, When would I ever learn? So much to look forward to: Doing what I've always wanted-- Giving and helping so many, Fulfilling my wildest dreams, Beginning a miraculous love. Life is full of such great wonder-- We must remember the past, Never forget the future plans, But always live for today! --July 14, 2003 I was feeling pretty reminiscent the day I wrote this, remembering my childhood. The part about a friend never forgotten is about my best friend who I had growi...

--July 6, 2003 Sometimes I forget the love He has for me: I start to think, "No one really cares." Nothing seems to be going right; I just keep sinking low'r and low'r. And when I think I've lost it all, He's there to lift me up and love me even more. I was obviously having a bad day when I wrote this. :)

--July 3, 2003 You will never know me, Or the way I feel about you. I see you from afar and dream. I see you dance and hear you sind. Your words are po'try to my soul; If you would only sing for me, My life would be complete, But you will never know me. Life with you could be so sweet; First we should probably meet, But you will never know me.

(Written July 3, 2003) I can't stop thinkin' 'bout you: Your smile and your voice, Or the way your eyes shine Is all so clear in my mind. Every thing reminds me of you; Everyone asks about you. Mem'ries of you just seem To cloud all other thought. Your words still sind to me; I can still sense your eyes Looking deep into my soul. You're the only one who Knows the real me inside.